I've been with my lovely lady for just under four years. We moved here together from Victoria to share in the adventure of coming to a new and exciting city. The first six months seemed blissful. Living and chilling out together, coffee in the mornings and movies at night. As time went on, something in the relationship shifted. Finding what or how to remedy this has been very hard. I can sit and stare at her, feeling how much I love her, yet there seems to be an emptiness that has crept up behind us.
My lady is a wonderfully passionate person. She came here to act, and act is what she has done. I firmly believe her career will fast track in no time at all. This makes for a busy schedule, one that I think doesn't balance with a long term relationship. I'm not trying to make this a blame statement, as I have much work to do on myself as well.
Passion is an interesting beast. Most of us go through life ignoring our passions as we feel it's 'not the right thing to do'. After so many years of working the jobs that we don't mind, it's tough to break the mold. I'm 32 and finding this balance between scarcity and happiness has been hard. As for my relationship, it seems it may be time for a break. It brings tears to my eyes thinking of losing her, losing her family, and losing her little dog I grew to love so much. I don't see any other way. It's super cliche, but maybe letting go of what you love is sometimes the right move? My heart is brimming with sadness and memories. Maybe it's time to create some new ones...
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